I’m just a middle-aged gal who’s interested in bringing her past together with her future and writing it down in chapters that might best honor and glorify the one who wrote the story.
I was born and raised in Southern California, which makes me a California girl. Growing up I spent a lot of time at the beach and on horseback, met the man of my dreams there, married him (lucky me!) and then we transplanted to Northern California. I’ve got two great adults kids (one girl and one boy) and they are my crowning achievements in terms of being successful at something that truthfully was all God’s doing. My favorite places on the planet might just be Lake Tahoe, Balboa Island, Disneyland, and New York City. I love food – I’m more of a meat and potatoes kind of gal – especially potato chips and onion dip, and I feel completely out of place at dinner parties that serve Brie and fancy hors d’oeuvres. If I could I’d be asking “where are the Little Smokies in BBQ sauce?” By the way…I had to look up how to spell the word “hors d’oeuvres, just so you know. I’m an athlete, still playing softball, biking and playing golf when I can. And I’m a wanna-be writer.
I’m a little bit rebellious in that I wear white after Labor Day and flip flops with dresses. In the fashion world that’s a sure sign that I might not care what other people think, and that sometimes spills over into my regular life. Not good. People would describe me as bubbly, outgoing, funny, positive, kind, welcoming, honest, encouraging, a great mom, a wonderful wife, organized, and one who likes to serve and bring people together in community. I just told you all the good stuff so you’ll think more highly of me.
Here’s the ugly stuff. I’m not a morning person, I’m selfish, prideful, self-serving, loud, controlling, forgetful, tired, a mom with regrets, a wife that could be better at lifting up her husband, disorganized, and I oftentimes feel entitled. So why write a blog? Somehow, I’d love to be able to write down what I’m learning and how I’m growing so that the first list is the first thing you see in me, and that someday what I have to say might be important to someone. Even if it’s just for me to journal what I’m learning about grace. Maybe it will make a difference in the world to someone. Maybe that someone is me. Maybe my kids. Maybe my grandkids someday.
Why grace? Well, grace is something that I was never taught in my home, nor any church that I attended through the years until the I found myself at the church where I serve now. It’s a concept that is elusive and you don’t just walk into. You can’t just get it’s definition, read a few Bible verses and then understand grace. No, first you have to walk around it a bit, observe others “offering it” from afar as they demonstrate grace to people (sometimes you) who are undeserving of it. Then you take your own first tiny steps in offering grace to the undeserving that you interact with in your day-to-day life, and in your kitchen, and your bedroom, and with your three dogs. (Did I mention I have three little dogs? Boy do they need grace!) Anyway…putting grace into practice, especially at home is the hard part, but just like life…it’s a journey and you have a lifetime to practice. So grace has been my fascination the past several years and I can’t get enough of it. Lucky for me, God doles it out by the dump truck full.
What I hope will define this blog is that its going to be filled with stories full of laughter, flub ups, admissions of my flaws, my discoveries, my joys, my failures, my BGD moments (that’s BIG GIANT DUH), my learning experiences, the funny moments, the blessings and the on-going transformation that’s hopefully taking place in my life. I’m a recovering Pharisee and I want to be transformed into a follower of Christ. I’m still in process. It’s a journey. And that’s what this blog is all about. Grace. The grace that He extends and that we spend a lifetime searching for.
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